In simple sense, too much work.
Well actually, kind of.
I dropped out of Science stream and am going to transfer into art stream by Monday. I wonder how I'll fit in though.
But anyways, since I'm out of Science Stream now, I'm taking vocal lessons now. Though, I haven't been singing for quite some time already so I'm kinda nervous.
That and I have to catch up on my General Science subject. Four chapters. Four freaking chapters.
Aaaand, I'm also a verrry passive learner.
I can't study on my own.
What takes my mom 1-2 hours takes me two days.
Yes, I know. I'm a failureeeeee
Well at least I'll have less homework now. If I really can't catch up on my own then I may have to ask help personally from Madam Rachel.
Also, my mom wants me to repeat Form 4 next year in Science Stream if possible. You know, I think my life has taken quite a toll and turned upside down ever since I entered this school. I feel like, you know, I've been neglecting everything. Friends, admirers/subscribers, collaboration partners, etc.
But I must say that my art has improved quite a bit already. I finally managed to get the body proportions right, but I can't scan it. Dayum.
Other than that, I. NEED. TO CRAVE. FOR ANIME.
Seriously, I need some entertainment in my life to get obsessed on.
My life feels meaningless without entertainment.
Everyday it's just, SCHOOL. WORK. STUDY. HOMEWORK. DETENTIONS.
Oh and, I hate marching. I. Hate. Marching. Blame the people of the olden times. I don't find any significance in marching when you're not even using it in a war. What good can marching bring? A machine gun can just kill the marchers even if they bore arms.
Marching is more of an entertainment to put on show these days. It's not even about loyalty or anything like that. It's just a parade, of people walking like machines.
In other news, my old friends in my old school have missed me. I met Kasma today and she was all excited and happy and surprised to see me. She told me that their Add Math teacher's personality was just like me, and that whenever the teacher in on her way to the classroom, my old classmates would go like "CHERYL IS COMING. CHERYL IS COMING. "
Sometimes I do wonder if I should have chosen the government school instead of a private school.
Really, I do. I agreed to enter this school because I wanted to learn art. Real art. And I did. But for some reason, I don't feel much of any happiness even if I've improved. It just feels so empty.
